| Location | Kettering |
| Age | 58 years |
| Date of Birth | 30/05/1949 |
| Date of Death | 21/08/2007 |
| Visitors | 135 since 03/08/2009 |
| Creator |
Almost 2 years have passed, I still remember every minute, every word spoken, the tears, the disbelief. I pass you every morning on my way to work, I always speak to you, I've called you everything for leaving me, but I guess you'll be thinking, here she goes moaning again.
Thought I managed okay for the first year or so, but this year has been really tough, everything that happended, the way it happened, has well and truly caught up with me, I feel worse now than a year ago. Being late home after a drink at the pub is one thing but not coming home at all is so so wrong.
I know you've been here, I've heard your workboots on the conservatory floor, you've woken me at night, you've touched my shoulder whilst I've been on the computer. You would have been so happy,the grandchild you always wanted will be here very soon, and Chris will do you proud when he walks Em down the aisle in April. You should be here, being part of everything that's happening part of everything you always wanted, I don't want to be alone we should be together. xx
3 years to the day today Dad, and it so feels like yesterday. Time has flown but the pain is still there still raw. On Saturday we will be letting some ballons go up into the sky, catch them for me Dad.
Love and missing you every day
xxxxx
Thinking of lots at the minute. Miss you so much would give anything to see yuo again. Love you xxxx
I am really missing you dad. I am struggling and the pain isn't easing. The time of year doesn't help, we always had fun and laughter, especially us putting the christmas tree up when we'd had a few! And I guess, coz the wedding is getting closer I don't know how I'll get through it without you. There is so much I wish I had told you. Love you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Death leaves a heartache no-one can heal, Love leaves a memory no-one can steal xxxxxxxxxxxx
I can't believe it's 2 years today Dad, still feels like yesterday and the pain hasn't gone away, it's just that I've buried it because I can't handle it. I think of you every day, I smile to myself about all the funny things and the memories and I cry alone wishing you were still here. You are the best dad a daughter could ever wish for. Things are so hard without you still and I still get angry it's just so unfair, we didn't deserved this. Everything you ever wanted is happening now and that's what makes it harder to deal with. I'm getting married soon and you never even got to meet Andy but I'm pretty sure you would have loved him. I am worried and scared because I don't know how I'm going to walk down the aisle without you by my side. It's meant to be you doing it, a special father and daughter moment that is just our's to treasure forever. I know Chris will do me and you proud though. I know I'll cry many tears for you on the day but I'm worried that if I start I won't beable to stop. I promise you though dad, you will be a part of my day, I've got things planned so that it will feel like you are with me.
Mum has found this year harder than the 1st but I am trying my best to help her get through it so don't worry dad. I try and be there for Chris too but you know what he is like!
Love you so much x missing you so much x give misty a hug from me xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Can't believe it's 2 years since you left us so suddenly, what you would have given to still be here. I talk to myself, I cry alone, what should have been is no more. The first year was strange, had to get on with things, had no choice, but this year has been worse, guess it all caught up with me the harsh reality that you were not coming back, you are not going to walk through the door smelling of diesel, or a little worse for wear after that extra pint at the pub. This should have been our time, now not sure what will happen, judging by how I feel now I'm full of negative thoughts, I know I need to change that around, not sure I'm strong enough but I have no choice, so if you get a minute a good kick up the backside may help! Always missing you, take care xx Love Jan
ive just thought i better write a quick few words on here but wasn't sure what to write but adding your tribute to my garden has made me realise that even though we were not related i always saw you as family always thought of you as my uncle Al always there to help me out if i needed it a shining light in life a brighter one in death you were a one off and i miss you we all miss you watch over us Uncle Al my guiding light
Time moves so fast but memories remain the same, you were one of lifes best Al and although you had lifes ups and downs you did your family proud and worked so hard. For your life here to end the way it did was unbelievable, no time for anyone to say goodbye.
Rest in peace and I'm sure you'll be looking down on Jan, Emma and Chris and keeping them all in check.
mate
2years seems like a lifetime you are not just afriend al
you are like my brother the laughs we had the good times they are no longer around now that you are gone
they say you cant choose your family but you can choose a friend and that is what you are my best friend now and for always
catch you later me old mucker
al
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